Back on (the Fitness) Track

When i was a school kid, i've always wanted to be the cool girl when i grow up.. You know like the ones in Hollywood movies who are always put-together; with a stable career, fabulous wardrobe, hot body, a loving partner, glamorous life with red carpet events and a gym membership.

Remember this movie? Elle Woods who is put-together, career as a lawyer, fab wardrobe, HOT BODY, handsome boyfriend, glam life and gym membership.

In a version of me in my head, i'm all these with less pink stuff, no pet and a brunette.

Fast forward to 6 years ago, alhamdulillah, even though i don't have it ALL, but i have a gym membership. Hahaha. And i made sure i go to the gym at least 3 times a day. 

Oh yes, i remember the thrill and rush i felt when i go for workout sessions at the gym. Going to yoga, pilates, kickboxing and RPM classes. Exchanged look with sweaty hot guys. And in the locker room, staring jealously at the women's rock solid abs.

Not only that, a few months before my wedding, i joined a bootcamp nearby my office. One-hour session twice a week of pure torture. i remember the pain in my arms, abs and ass after each session and i remember being addicted to the pain. THAT much effort made me careful with what i eat. Apa guna 50 push up dan beratus kalori terbakar pastu makan pulak nasik lemak ayam kan?

Believe it or not, before i became a mother that was my life. i was quite an active person.

i know it's not an excuse but being a mother really takes a lot of me. Ever since i got pregnant with Afif in January 2012, i didn't work out. Ye lah lepas dah beranak, masuk keje pastu setiap hari nak bergegas balik sebab tak cukup bekalan susu ibu kat rumah. Nak pulak badan maintain pre-pregnancy weight idok ler rasa perlu nak workout bagai. Tak sempat wean off, pregnant plak with Dhani. Lagi la tak bersenam. i admit i missed being active but running after my boys are workout enough for me.

 Me now. One toddler on hips running after a preschooler on the loose.

Sehingga lah sekarang. Baru sedar diri.

Starting from January 2016 after my unpaid leave ended and i return to work, i notice my weight gradually increased. Masuk keje dengan pre-pregnancy weight. Now i have gained 7kgs in total weh. Ye la seronok tetiap hari makan dengan kawan-kawan.

Back then i never let my weight reach 55kg. Now it's a hard battle not to let it reach 60kgs.

i know we should never let the number of the scale to determine our fitness and body figure tapi bila seluar yang dulunya longgar dah jadi ketat, sila paham-paham sendiri la ye.

I KNEW I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING.

People talk about carb-free diet like Atkins. i know that's not for me because i'm a breastfeeding mom. i need sufficient calorie intake to ensure Dhani gets Mama's milk. And i love food so i'm not ready to sacrifice that.

i considered liposuction but my husband said NO.

The other option is to get physical.

The cheapest way is to go running at the park. i started running in October last year. i made sure i run at least twice a week. Sometimes when the kids are napping or when my husband is home, i go for a run during the weekend. Usually i spend around 20 minutes per session, running for about 2.5km. Man, it feels so good. Heart pumping, spending time outside and see the world. i even joined Orchid Run last year, running for 5km. i notice my weight hasn't really dropped. Sekilo je la kalau ade pon but my pants feel a bit looser.

Makin lama makin demotivated sebab apsal aku tak kurus-kurus weh?

So since last April i stepped up my game a bit. i started going back to the gym!

GASP!

It all started when the rainy season hit KL. i cannot run in the park so i go run on the threadmill at the gym (free membership by the employer, bless them!). But i hate running on treadmills because the time seems to be ticking so slowly.

So guys, i started to go to cardio kickboxing and zumba classes!

Nowadays my schedule looks like this: 

- Tuesday and Thursday: one hour Zumba session after work. Organized by Petronita woohoo!

- Friday : cardio kickboxing class at lunchtime

Recently i tried a Zumba class at the gym on Monday noon and it was awesome too! So i might make that a permanent. So bye-bye lunchtime get-together!

Speaking of Zumba, oh God i love Zumba! i can't believe all these time i never thought of trying Zumba. i love that it doesn't feel like a workout - it feels like you're dancing. So i dance, dance, dance during these sessions. Our instructor, Hannah Kamal is a beautiful lady with a lean, hot body. Looking at her is like looking at a dream body that i couldn't have.

All these activities look like a lot but sadly i haven't lost any kgs yet WHICH IS SO FRUSTRATING OH MY GOD!

Ko bayangkan 3-4 kali bersenam seminggu tapi tak kurus-kurus sape tak stress weh. Memang meroyan. Husband and the Sisthurs have been reasoning with me that maybe lemak dah cair but you're gaining muscle but whatever lah kan. My pants are still tight at the ass. So you guys are wrong!

But i'm trying to keep positive. Maybe i didn't reduce my calorie intake. Maybe i take too much carbs. Maybe 2 months are not sufficient to see results yet. So i'm gonna keep trying to get my pre-Dhani weight back.

It's really a struggle. When i was in my twenties, diet or workout seminggu dua dah nampak kurus. La ni habuk pon tadak! It's true what they say; aging sucks!

Wish me luck, guys!

Lazy Girl's Guide to Lose Weight

Ladies, let’s admit it: You are obsessed with your weight. Well, if you are not, you belong in the 5% of women who don’t really think much about their weight and i can't relate with you. 

Everyday we are bombarded with images of perfect, thin-but-with-lush-bossoms-and-bottom women in TV, Instagram and YouTube that makes us think “Why can’t I look that hot?”

The truth is, you can!

You can if you work for that dream body. Looking good doesn’t come easily (except for those lucky few who are blessed with good DNA). Those beautiful models, celebrities and Insta-famous people you see work really hard to look good.

However, let’s admit it. Not all of us have the time and willpower to religiously work out for 2 hours a day and be on a diet. i know i am not that determined. 

Through most of my adult life, i make sure i weigh no more than 55kg. But once i stopped pumping breastmilk at work last October, i weight has gradually increased. Now i'm 57kg! It feels like the end of the world.

Tapi masih malas nak workout dan diet. For me, dieting doesn't do the body good because i know i won't be able to switch to Atkins/go vegan/carb-free for good.

So what can a lazy girl like me do? A subtle change of lifestyle. Here are 10 everyday realistic things you can do to help you lose those kgs: 

1. Load Up on Protein

As Malaysians, we tend to have a bigger portion of carbohydrate (rice and noodles) on our plate. Change this! Instead of rice, load up your plate with protein. Instead of having one piece of chicken with a bowl of rice, try to have two pieces of chicken with half a bowl of rice. This simple switch will keep you full longer that you eat up to 441 fewer calories per day according to a few studies including this one. Meanwhile, according to one study from University of Missouri, high protein diet reduces obsessive thoughts about food by 60%, while cutting the desire for late night snacking in half.

Eating a high protein diet has been shown to boost metabolism by 80 to 100 calories per day, thus helps you feel full longer.

2. Drink More Water

Drinking loads of water immediately before meals tricks your body into thinking that you are full faster because water fills the space in your tummy.

Not only before meals, drinking lots of water throughout the day helps reduce water retention (that adds extra inches on your arms and waistline).

3. Less White Carbohydrate Intake

We all know this: white carbs means calories, and lots of them.

Studies show that refined carbs like sugar which exists in cakes, cookies, chocolate bars and fruit juices, and also rice and pastas can spike blood sugar rapidly, which leads to hunger, cravings and increased food intake a few hours later.

For healthier choice, replace sugar with honey and brown sugar (in limited quantity, of course) and take brown rice instead of your usual white rice.

 4. Tea, Tea, Tea

It’s no secret that green tea helps weight loss and fat burning, thanks to the powerful antioxidants called catechins that is found in green tea.

Aside from green tea, black Chinese tea called Pu-Erh Tea also helps to aid weight loss. i learnt this during my trip to Beijing last December. Our tour guide told us that they (especially young girls) drink Pu-erh tea to lose weight and maintain the ideal weight. The best time to drink a cup of Pu-erh tea for weight loss goals is one hour after a meal so that the Pu-erh tea can remove excess grease and help your body eliminate unwanted and leftover, hard-to-digest fats.

i've never been a fan of tea (i'm more of a coffee person) but i guess i have to start now.

5. Smaller Plates for Smaller Portion

This might seems like a no-brainer but using smaller plates at meal times will lead you to eat less. This, researches has found, is caused by a simple trick of the eyes (you can read about it here). At meal time, we tend to fill our plate and do not stop eating until the plate is clean. The bigger the plate, the more fill it with food hence the more we eat. By using smaller tableware, people will put less food on their plate in the first place. A research by Cambridge academics found that simply by switching to smaller bowl or plate, we reduce food intake by 9%.

6. Spice Up Your Life

News flash: spicy foods help in weight loss! There are many ways spicy food can help you to shed those extra pounds. Firstly, spicy stuff like chilli and cayenne contain a substance called Capsaicin which boost metabolism. High metabolism enable the body to burn more calories. Secondly, Capsaicin also reduces your appetite.

This is good news for us Malaysians because we love our spicy sambals and asam pedas!

7. Stairs Instead of Lifts

This is the ultimate shortcut to working out if you are a lazy girl. Take the stairs! Your apartment is on the 6th floor? No problem. Take the stairs instead of lift and you got your 5 minutes of exercise without even trying.

8. Avoid Stocking Up Your Kitchen With Unhealthy Snacks

This includes those so-called healthy biscuits and energy bars, ice creams, cookies and white bread. Instead, stock up on fruits like banana, apples and raisins, nuts, wholemeal breads and yogurt. These are healthier options especially when you’re on the go.

9. Break Up With Your Yoga Pants

For real, ditch the yoga pants and any pants or any clothing made from jersey or stretchable materials. Yes they are so, so comfortable when you’re pregnant, when you’re bloated during your period or bloated with the all-you-can-eat buffet. But it’s easy to lose yourself in those.

Firstly, they don’t really look good (unless you have a lean, cellulite-free backside). Secondly, its stretchy material means it will still fit you comfortably even when you put on extra inches without realizing it. Your slim fit jeans, on the other hands, will never lie. When you have accidentally gained an inch, it will let you know “Nope, you can’t fit in here. Try again when you’ve lost the extra inch.”

10. Try the 7-Minutes Exercise

As lazy as we may be, in order to slim down and stay slim, you have to incorporate some exercise in your routine (that’s why this point is the last on the list). If you’re not a fitness junkie at all, try to go for a 10-minute walk around the block or the mall, at least twice a week. Over time, increase the duration and pace. Many have sworn by this 7-Minutes Exercise. Come on, 7 minutes out of 1440 minutes a day is not that much, isn’t it?

There you go. 10 simple things you can do daily to slim down. Remember, getting slim and fit won’t happen overnight or even a week. It takes a change in lifestyle.

Pray that i can adhere by these too so that i can lose these evil extra kgs.

*this article originally was written for ZCOOP My. i republish it here with some changes.
 

My Eczema

I have this bad eczema. Very bad eczema.

 

It's on the palm of my right hand.

I can't pinpoint exactly when it started but I guess some time after Dhani was born. At first it was very mild. Tu yang tak perasan. i had this red patch in right my middle finger. Maybe it was because a particular gold ring that i wore is quite thick so residue of water and soap were trapped underneath.

Over time i notice the skin in my palm gets dried quite easily. Pakai losyen ok lah dia. Lama-lama it turns red and gets very itchy. This happened on off.. So I didn't think too much about it. I just stopped wearing that particular ring.

But even ring-less, it gotten worse in October-November. Red, itchy skin with dots of tiny blister-like 'bubbles' underneath my skin filled with clear fluid or sometimes, pus.

October 2015

Sikit je dekat jari hantu. Gatal, kulit kering but after 4-5 days okay balik.

 

Starting in middle October, it gets worse and worse. Aku tak bother pon nak jumnpa doctor sebab ingatkan biasa lah ni. Aku cuti dah 6 bulan time tu, so being a SAHM, kerja memang tak habis lah. Basuh baju, basuh pinggan, botol anak, toilet.. Macam-macam detergent kene kulit so sebab tu la kot. Pelik la jugak sebab takde pon tukar sabun ke ape. segala sabun kat rumah memang brand yang biasa pakai bertahun lama. Maybe pas bersalin Dhani hormone aku dah jadi haywire so wujud alergi baru? I don't know.

November 2015

I think this is the second time my palm got red and itchy. Note that it has spread to my ring index finger.

January 31, 2016

The eczema has spred widely to my ring, middle and index finger and my palm. Red skin, itchy dan sangat pedih. Note the tiny red dots of 'bubbles' filled with clear fluid and sometimes pus.

 

 

Bila tangan aku dah jadi gini, baru lah aku sedar diri and stop all water-related chores. Botol anak, alat breastpump sume Mr. Chenta uruskan. Cuci pinggan aku minimumkan.. Kalo terpaksa basuh, aku pakai glove. Cuma kalo memasak tu harung je la tp minimize usage of hand soap/dish soap.

 

Aku tukar sabun mandi aku. Pakai Moogoo Milk Bath. Kalo aku mandikan bebudak tu pon aku pakaikan Moogo. Ointments jangan citer la. Banyak dah aku cuba. Memula pakai krim Beprosil tapi yang ni ada steroid. Bila tau dia ada steroid terus aku stop pakai. Try jugak VCO, Moogoo Skin Balm, and ade lg satu ape ntah brand skin spray ni. Makan pon aku pantang. I stopped eating seafood.

Sakit, gatal pedih dia toksah nak cerita. Bila nak start flare up tu, rasa denyut-denyut tangan. Gatal. Pastu jari-jari aku ni bengkak. Timbul bintik-bintik ada air tu. After 2-4 days like this, dia start kering. Pastu mengelupas. Kering sekering-keringnya. Pedih. Kadang berdarah. Kasar sangat kulit. I can't do anything.

 

It sucks big time sebab kat TAPAK TANGAN KANAN. Tangan yang buat segala benda. It hurts to write, to hold stuff, to hold my baby, mandikan diorang pon sakit, nak bukak botol/jar (sebab kene genggam and pulas penutup kan?), apatah lagi nak drive.

Tak dapat baying perasaan baby yang penuh eczema kat badan atau muka.

2 February 2016. Siang.

Bila dah kering, kulit mengelupas camni. Rasa sangat kering, pedih and tegang.

2 February 2016. Malam.

Horror kan?

17 February 2016.

It got better tapi certain area kulit rasa nipis sgt and pedih. Certain area kulit kering. Pedih jugak.

Today.

Tapi entah la hoi. Dah tukar sabun, stop buat chores pon same je eczema aku. Tak makan seafood, makan ikan pon flare up jugak eczema. On off. I miss my old skin. As kata dulu tangan aku la paling lembut. Skang toksah la cakap. Kalau tak dry up pon, dia nipis and rasa kering bagaikan tak pernah jmpe losyen.

 

Alhamdulillah semalam and harini rasa ok sket tangan aku. But I know it will flare up again.

 

Maybe I have to try those gluten-free, MSG-free diet. Maybe I have to really jot down what I eat to identify what food triggers. Maybe I have to spend more on ointments. But in between working and minding my children, I can't afford to really be picky of what I eat. Kat rumah Wan & Mak Ngah memang masak everyday. Tak sampai hati aku nak order makan itu ini or tak makan ape yg dah tersedia. Hati orang tua kan.. Kene jaga.

 

Sesapa ada experience in managing eczema tolong la share eh?

Sneeze Fest

The past 3 days have been challenging.

Came down with flu and non-stop sneeze fest on Monday afternoon. Sampai rumah terus melepet sampai malam. Mr. Chenta pepandai la jaga Afif aku dah takleh bangon.

Tuesday morning i woke up with an awful throb in my head, a fever and a nose full of snot that i could barely breathe without my mouth hanging open. Tissue papers full of snot around me. Not a pretty sight at all. Melepet all day. Sian anak aku mintak perhatian, ajak main, mintak nenen tapi tak berapa dilayan. i did not take any medications coz i'm worried it might affect the baby in my tummy.

Tengah hari tu gi klinik nak mintak ubat and MC. Doktor boleh kasi paracetamol je, vitamin B complex, ubat sakit tekak and nasal spray. Ubat selsema dia tak brani bagi katanya. She's really concerned coz my blood pressure is very low. 90/60. Katanya kalo low pon patut nya cannot go lower than 70 (nombo yang bawah tu). Takot blood flow ke baby tak cantik. Dia pesan soh banyak banyak minom air and rest. Of course la aku risau. 

Wednesday morning still demam, sakit kepala and hidung sumbat tambah plak ngan batuk. Cukup pakej. Pas makan roti, makan ubat. Still tak larat gi keje so aku gi klinik balik sebab nak mintak MC harini. Doctor check blood pressure lagi rendah drp semalam. 90/53 pulak. Seriously how do you elevate blood pressure? Ingatkan dapat la rest the whole day tapi dapat plak appointment alert kat phone for Afif's post-surgery follow up kat Sunway Medical. Gagahkan hati teman hubby and Afif pi check up. Lama la jugak petang baru settle. 

Here i am today at work. Tak larat dah nak MC sebabnye kalo dok umah pon still kene layan Afif ku sayang. Bertabah je la dok opis ni haa..

It's true what they say. There's no sick days for moms. Kalo dulu Afif kat umah babysitter dapat la jugak aku tido melepet bila MC. Ni sejak husband ku unpaid leave jaga dia, kalo MC pon aku kene melayan. Tak dapat bayangkan camne la full time housewife rasa bila sakit still kene jaga anak.

All in all, i'm just praying that baby in my tummy will not be affected by my fever and blood pressure.

Reality Check

Semalam macam biasa lah aku balik keje naik train. Terhegeh-hegeh berjalan dengan 5-inch heels aku ni. Macam biasa jugak lah dalam train memang kebarangkalian nak dapat tempat duduk memang sangat kecil. Tak la jugk kesah sebab dah biasa berdiri. 

So there i was, minding my own business, playing with my phone, berdiri mengadap passanger yang duduk.

Tiba-tiba..

"Dik.. Nak duduk?" tegur sorang akak yang duduk depan aku. "Sorry la akak baru perasan.." katanya.

And i was like "Eh.. Takpe kak"

And she said "Takpe.. Duduk lah" sambil nak bangon.

Aku pon cakap "Takpe kak.. Saya bukan ngandong pon. Ni gemok je.."

Muka hakak tu PRICELESS

Reaction dalam kepala hotak aku pon PRICELESS.

HAMAGADDDD serious lah aku dah gemok tahap orang mengandong ke weh?

Then i realized i have been eating a lot lately especially bende manis seperti ice blended, choc chip cookies (banyak gila sebab tengah membungkus kat umah untuk doorgift adik aku kawen), popcorn.. Aku perasan gak nasi dalam pinggan pon dah jadi setengah pinggan compared to dulu before Afif suku pinggan gitu je. 

Alasan aku makan sukahati adalah sebab aku breastfeed, i need more to produce milk. Memang selama ni makan banyak mana pon, berat aku maintain. Siap lose weight masa cuti 3 bulan sebab penat jadi SAHM. Tapi skang aku pam pon sehari sekali compared to dulu 2-3 kali. Memang calorie berlebih tu jadi lemak la, bukan jadi susu.

A hard slap of reality in my face.

Seriously, kene kembali ke pangkal jalan. 

No more excessive eating. 

No more twice a week Extreme Latte Frappe. 

No more makan cookies. 

No more cream based pasta everytime makan pasta. 

No more nasik lemak. 

No more late night nasik just because "nanti malam takda susu camne?"

Have to workout.

Petang tu, sampai je umah lepas amek Afif terus lah mini workout katanya. Kat dalam bilik je pon sambil Afif layan iPad. Planking. Push-ups. Sit-ups (which i failed miserably sebab takde orang pegang kaki aku). Squats. The things i learnt in bootcamp. Nak gi gym, jogging bagai sape la nak jaga anak aku kan..

Lunch pulak harini aku makan salad je. Ok fine sebenarnya bawah salad tu ade pasta coz i still need some carbo ok. But at least not nasi lauk ayam lemak.

Not much but it's something. A start to my change.

Aku bukan nak diet beriya macam orang kat insta/fb #eatclean #workout #abs #fitness katanya. Sekadar kembali ke pangkal jalan. 

Wish me luck and doa la supaya aku tak start makan cam onggiler after 1 week. 

30 day squat challenge for beautiful ass.

Jom?

p/s: aku pon slalu confuse dalam train sama ada seseorang perempuan itu mengandung atau pon gemok. Aku rasa tips untuk tau pompuan dalam train tu pregnant ataupon gemok: 

1) kalo pakai kasut 5 inci sah la tak pregnant. 

2) kalo dia muka pucat nampak penat pastu pegang perot 70% kemungkinan dia pregnant

3) pakai kasut tumit rendah yang tak cantik tapi comfy tu kemungkinan 50% pregnant (i wore a hideous yellow Clarks flats throughout my pregnancy sebab walopon tak cantik, itu yg paling selesa utk aku)

4) dia tayang perot dia kat depan 'seats for disabled people' dengan muka yang macam kata "bangon la wehh aku ngandong, nak duduk"

Demam Lagi

Afif has been having flu and runny nose ever since we got back from Bangkok. Memula selsema and runny nose je. Kesian btol budak bila idong sumbat. Makan and minom pon payah..

Last two days dia mula batuk. Babysitter Whatsapp kata dia nanges all day, muntah kahak dan takmo makan. Malam tu payah tido. Muntah. Pagi bangon, suara dia serak dah.

Semalam ingat nak bawak dia gi paed kitorang slalu gi iaitu Dr. Shanaliza. Tapi tutup plak. Oh, semalam jugak adalah Afif's second speech therapy session. Aku memang amek halfday la semalam sebab nk bawak dia gi klinik dan terapi.

Malam tadi dia demam suhu yang panas. Muntah dua kali. Merengek. Lepas bagi ubat demam, baru tido. Tapi itu pon clingy gila stok peluk aku, kalo aku gerak sket dia terus terjaga.

Pagi ni still teruk jugak batuk. Aku bawak dia gi klinik Dr. Nadir nak sedut kahak. Aku panggil klinik tu "Baby's Torture Chamber" sebab segala budak yang gi situ konfem nanges bila kene nebulizer dan sedut kahak/hingus tu. Selalunya husband yang pegang Afif masa neb tp dia kerja harini. Jadi, aku la tukang pegang. Sedih tengok dia miserable. Kali ni dia tak menangis meraung, dia just nanges perlahan macam sedih kenapa lah mama aku buat aku camni. Sorry, sayang. Mama wants you to get better.

Pastu dia termenung je. Ni dah tido. Pheww..

Dr. Nadir kata baby kalo banyak travel and naik flight/dok hotel memang senang sakit. Sebabnye centralizd airconds kat dlm airplane and hotel rooms circulate all kinds of virus/bacteria from all kinds of people. Memang salah aku la jugak.  The past few weeks memang banyak travel. Perth, Bangkok, Kota Bharu.. Ni weekend ni nak fly ke Langkawi pulak. Haih.. Sorry Afif. Starting next year kte tak ke mana-mana dah.

Sejak Afif dah besar ni, banyak kali selsema n demam. Sedih la. Bila jadi camni sebolehnya i wanna be there with him, jaga dia. It means i have to take time off work. i feel so torn between work and my baby. Lebihkan family makes me look like an incompetent staff. Being a working mom makes me a bad mom. How lah..

Sayang, get well soon please. Mama is so worried.

Random on Friday

1) Aku rasa aku dah gemok. Maka aku stress.

2) Pas bersalin aritu happy sebab i was only 2 kgs heavier than pre-pregnancy weight. Alasan nak sedapkan hati adalah larger boobs coz i'm breastfeeding. Skang dah tambah lagi 2kgs. Takde alasan dah. i'm at my heaviest point right now. Pregnant aritu tak kira lah. Aaaaa stress!

3) Aku tak boleh diet seperti tak makan nasik/makan salad everyday cam aku buat dulu-dulu sebab aku breastfeed. Tak makan nasi konfem production merudum. Nak gi gym memang susah la weh nanti sape nak amek anak?

4) Milk production tak lebat cam dedolu. Tapi aku pasrah dah sebab sejak Afif start makan ni, dia kurang menyusu. Around 9oz je sehari. Boleh kejar lagi lah walopon pam harini memang untuk esok. Nan hado stok.

5) Anak babysitter aku yg bernama Anum dah abes blaja. So dia duk umah tolong jaga bebudak and she's Afif's favorite. Petang masa amek dia, mesti tengah berkepit. Pernah aku datang, dia tido kat bilik Anum dengan Anum skali tido. Kalo hantar, nampak je Anum dia squeal with delight. Jealous la jugak sebab dia slalu squeal gitu kalo nampak aku je but at the same time i'm glad coz it means they're treating him right.

6) Skang memang penat lah layan dia. Dok umah asyik nak bertatih. Anum pon cakap "Afif ni asyik nak tatih jeee" Feveret dia adalah bertatih gi toilet pastu nak masuk bathtub. Hamboi kemain!

7) Dok atas katil, dah pandai nak turun sendiri. Bila turun tu aku kene lah jaga blakang, takot terlentang. Stakat ni 30% berjaya turun perfect tak jatuh. Selalunya memang jatuh. Cuba lagi!

8) Aku rasa cam hampeh je dressing aku skang. Lelagi jeans, skinny jeans, tops. My precious maxi dresses lama dah tak pakai sebab susah nak bf/mengepam. i need a wardrobe upgrade and buy colorful stuff. Maxi skirts..

9) The in-laws ajak gi Bangkok in two weeks. Family vacay oh yeah! And also SHOPPING!!

10) Semalam adalah hari aku meroyan sebab Google pasal vaccination and vaginal birth after ceasarean (VBAC). Selama ni aku ignorant pasal vaccination and thought of course we need it. Orang yang kononnya hipster je takmo vaccinate anak. Bila baca the risks of it, aku paranoidddd! Paranoid bila baca article ini. Pastu paranoid gak kalo aku takleh beranak normal pasni or tetiba kene uterus rupture. Paranoidddd!

11) Esok gi Afif punya 1-year checkup. Sebulan lambat but it's okay. Aku berdebor pasal MMR jab tu. i need to talk to some doctors before we go tomorrow.

12) Remember i told you about taking Depo Provera shot in early May? That's the only shot i took sebab decided tanak continue dah sebab takot susah nak pregnant balik. Lepas amek tu period aku datang 2 kali dengan heavy-nya. Pastu sampai skang tak period. Dah 5 bulan.  i'm not pregnant yet tapi aku stress sebab tak period. Occasionally sakit perot cam mild senggugut tapi tak period gak. Nyesal amek shot tu aritu.

13) Ikthiar makan evening primrose oil to help improve my menstrual cycle. Baru seminggu. Will let you know if it works.

Happy Friday!

*taken at lunch time. Can you believe this is my first ootd photo ever?*

Hand, Foot and Mouth Disease

Last two weeks, Afif had a mild fever on Tuesday. On Wednesday, the babysitter texted, asking for permission to give him paracetamol for his fever. Panas sangat badan dia katanya. Being an overly attached mom, i went back at 3.30pm to get him. 

Memang panas badan dia and the weird thing is he got tiny dots around his mouth and chin. 

Malam tu nampak rashes around his right leg pulak. He also drooled uncontrolably. Basah baju dia penuh ngan air liur. We went to a clinic to get him checked but the doctor said the rashes are caused by baby's sensitive skin. 

The second day. Kene pakaikan bib sebab air liur meleleh.

The next day Afif dah tak demam. Tapi rashes makin banyak, dia asyik merengek and air liur meleleh leleh. Direct feed pon taknak. I brought him to Dr. Shanaliza, the nearest paedretician. She confirmed that Afif had Hand Foot and Mouth disease. Kat lelangit Afif banyak luka katanya. That explains his uncontrollable drooling.

Maka terpaksa lah aku EL smpai the next Tuesday sebabnya Afif kene dikuarantin di rumah. Paling sedih he did not want to eat nor drink. Breastfeeding pon susah nak latch. Nanges2 dia nak netek. Makan apatah lagi. Sebab tak tau dah nak lasi dia makan apa, kitorang kasi dia Calci Yum yogurt and also once, frozen yogurt. Sejuk n smooth, tu je dia bole makan.

Alhamdulillah by Monday tu ok dah dia. Dah boleh makan and rashes subside. But i'm still on leave as nobody look after him at home. He can't go to the babysitter yet as he's still under quarantine. i missed my scheduled annual assessment. Sigh. Demi anak. Harap cepat dapat reschedule.

Anyway, here are the symptoms Afif had, chronologically:

- First day: mild fever

- Second day: mild fever with rashes around mouth and neck. Started to drool a lot and refused to feed

- Third day: fever subsided. Rashes increased in amount but only 1-2 dots on hand and foot. Banyak kat mulut je.. Merengek-rengek. Drooling. Refused to feed.

- Forth & Fifth day: Rashes began to dry. Drooling and cranky. Refused to eat.

- Sixth day: Less drooling. Able to eat and drink easily but no appetite. 

Hand Foot and Mouth disease is contagious and spreads by droplets. Until now, i'm not sure how he got it as there's no other babies/kids at the babysitters ever had this disease. Maybe dapat masa kuar gi mall or mana-mana kot. Around that time ada sorang dua jugak anak kengkawan kene penyakit ni. Nasib baik aku kuarantin kan dia. Kalo tak kesian baby lain kat babysitter kene jugak.

If your child has this disease, there's not much you can do. Firstly get doctor's advice. The most important thing is to keep his/her temperature under control and make sure he's not dehydrated by trying to breastfeed and get him to drink as much as possible. Kene banyak bersabar je lah. Tunggu sampai penyakit tu hilang. 

i just hope he will not get this disease in the future. Kesian tengok dia meleleh air liur, sakit mulut and takleh makan and minom.

Pregnancy Worries & Paranoia

Alhamdulillah, i'm already 22 weeks pregnant. Yeay!

These past few days i have so many paranoia and questions about being pregnant.

Firstly there's this week-versus-month issue.

You know how they count the weeks in pregnancy? i find that this week-counting is a bit confusing. Roughly, pregnancy lasts 40 weeks. Generally, a month equals to 4 weeks. By right pregnancy lasts 10 months, right? But no, the way people are counting it, pregnancy lasts 9 months. This is how they classify and label the weeks and months of pregnancy:

First Trimester

1st Month  : Weeks 1, 2, 3, 4

2nd Month : Weeks 5, 6, 7, 8

3rd Month  : Weeks 9, 10, 11, 12, 13

Second Trimester

4th Month  : Weeks 14, 15, 16, 17

5th Month  : Weeks 18, 19, 20, 21

6th Month  : Weeks 22, 23, 24, 25, 26

Third Trimester

7th Month  : Weeks 27, 28, 29, 30

8th Month  : Weeks 31, 32, 33, 34, 35

9th Month  : Weeks 36, 37, 38, 39, 40

So according to this chart, i'm already 6 months pregnant. Still, it's confusing because when people ask, "How far along are you?" and i'll answer "I'm 22 weeks so 6 months!". The person will give me this confused look and say "But 22 weeks should be, like, 5 months sumthing?" i'll go speechless.

i also have this paranoia : i look quite small for a 6-months preggers lady.

When i look at my bare belly, i feel HUGE. Ini lah perot paling besar aku ada sepanjang hidup aku. But when people see me and learn that i'm 6-months prego, they'll be like "Serious lah dah 6 bulan? Apsal kecik?". My grandma (Wan) says "Anak ko tu kecik kot.." and my colleague once exclaimed "Teefa, apsal seluar ko makin longgar ni?" coz i can still fit in my pants, jeans, dresses and tops. Kebaya tu memang tak boleh la hoi.

So far i've gained 3 kgs from my pre-pregnancy weight. Generally i think 3 kgs are good enough. Kalau over gain nanti, ada jugak masalah lain kan.. Tapi kalo dah ramai orang cakap baby kecik la, tak sihat lah, ape lah i couldn't help but worry. Bukannya haku tak makan hoi. Memanglah to be honest aku tak selera sangat makan but i eat 4 small portions a day. It's not like i'm restraining myself from eating (ko ingat senang mengandung nak tahan makan? Asyik lapar je walaupun tak selera makan). Sekarang ni selagi doc kata baby aku sihat, aku okay kan je la. Tapi stress la jugak kan kalo tetiap hari orang kata "Ko tak payah diet-diet la. Fikir baby dalam perut.." Dafuq?

My other paranoia is umbilical cord accidents.

After doing some research (here, here and here) , i know the fact that babies can't be strangled by the umbilical cord. Any form of strings can't strangle the baby in the womb because oxygen supply comes from the placenta, through the umbilical cord and into the baby. Babies does not breathe and get oxygen with its mouth and nose yet. But, umbilical cord accidents can happen if the umbilical cord is somehow twisted, compacting the cord and clogging the pathway for oxygen and nutrient supplies. In the mother's womb, babies do all sort of things - somersault, kicks, punches, cartwheels, and God-knows-what-else. What if while doing all these fun things, the baby wrapped him/herself in the umbilical cord, choking the cord and cutting off all the oxygen and nutrient supplies? What if???

Sigh.

Jadi mak-mak boyot ni susah jugak tau. All these hormones constantly make you worry about the child's well-being. Kami hanya mampu memberikan yang terbaik (cukup makan, do some exercise, prepare barang baby, etc) tapi manusia ni itu je la mampu. Selain tu, hanya boleh berdoa supaya baby kecik adalah membesar dengan sihat sempurna imannya, fizikalnya dan mentalnya. Amin.

Easy Peasy Pizza by Teefa

i have not been blogging for a while. Halah tak guna nak bagi alasan busy dengan assessment dan hal kahwin. Kalo nak ber-blog tuh akan ber-blog jugak kan?

Anyway, dalam ke-busy-an, sempat jugak luang masa buat pizza. Hehe. My first ever homemade pizza.

It all started when Adeq, Mr. Chenta's 12-year-old brother found this website online. We were drooling at the Crispy Onion video recipe and browsed through and decided to make pizza as our weekend project. But really, apalah ko boleh harap kat budak lelaki 12 tahun nak buat pizza ngan ko.. He helped me measure the ingredients, wowed at the process and pegi depan sambung main game (-_-)

There are three stages in making the pizza; the dough, the sauce, and the toppings. Honestly, they're all easy processes. Cuma leceh sikittttttt je.

The Dough

i prepared this on Friday night as it needs around 12-18 hours to let the dough rise dan menggebu. Easy peasy when you follow the instruction in this No-knead Pizza Dough video:

Note: It was hard finding all-purpose flour at Carrefour (ke aku je tak nampak?). i bought a brand called Pillsbury at Cold Storage.

The dough after it has risen. i only waited for 13 hours. Tak sabar dah. Then i divided it into 4 doughs pastu uli sampai jadi camni (as per video).

The Sauce

Bila agak-agak dah nampak dough tu dah naik dan gebu, boleh la start buat sos pizza ni.. Again, sila follow video ini:

Note: Canned peeled whole tomato can be bought at Cold Storage. 

 My pizza sauce.

The Toppings

Now this is the FUN FUN FUN part! Kita boleh sesedap rasa letak topping apa kita nak sebab pizza kita, sukahati kita lah. i decided to have minced chicken, beef salami (konon-konon ganti beef pepperoni lah, cari pepperoni tak jumpa), Portobello mushrooms, bell peppers and Mozzarella cheese.

Minced chicken tu kene masak dulu sebelum dijadikan topping. Senang jah. Ini resipi saya yang saya hentam main campak dalam kuali on the spot..

Ingredients:

600g minced chicken

3 shallots

Olive oil

Salt

Black pepper

Instruction:

Tumis bawang dalam minyak zaitun. Masukkan minced chicken. Bila ayam tu separa masak, masukkan garam and lada hitam secukup rasa. Siap!

The minced chicken.

Veggies and meat salami!

Okay, bila dough, sauce and toppings ni dah siap, sapukan sauce atas dough yang dah dilenyek, letak toppings pilihan hati, top it off with Mozzarella cheese sesedapnya. Bakar dalam oven lebih kurang 15 minit. Haa.. Dah jadi pizza. Kalau meletops dah boleh ko bawak jual Jahhh!

 Sebelom masuk oven.

Bahan-bahan di atas ni boleh buat 4 bijik 9-inch pizza. Memang dari tengah hari smpai malam kitorang makan pizza je hari tu..

Dannnnn... Ini hasilnya!

 My very first pizza. Sekarang dah bercita-cita nak bukak little pizzeria. Gila semangat dan ambitious kan?

Back to reality.

Selamat mencoba!

p/s: i soooo love Foodwishes! Banyak gila resipi and senang ikot..

HIV Test Done!

Life's been hectic lately.

Between Jakarta wedding shopping, work, Penang girlfriends getaway, Linda's Hen Party and the bootcamp, i can barely find time for myself, let alone to blog.

i'm exhausted.

On another note, wedding progress is good so far. Yesterday we took the HIV test!

 This is it!

 Paid and done.

Alhamdulillah, we're AIDS-free!

Yeay boleh kawen!

Took the test at Klinik Kesihatan Setiwangsa (or was it Keramat?). The process was smooth. i just wish there aren't that much forms to be filled. Ada borang survey tabiat hidup lah, borang kehamilan lah, and borang HIV test itself.

The thing that i love about this clinic is that it does not only do HIV test. They take your blood sample and did sugar level, cholestrol level, Thallasemia, blood pressure, and God-knows-what-else tests. The test is complete. i finally got to know our Thallasemia status (i was so scared if we both have Thallasemia.. Alhamdulillah that's not the case). We were given advices on how to live healthy (my sugar level was slightly high, Mr. Chenta's BMI is above average and he's ordered to stop smoking *evil grin*).

So.. HIV test done. Now to proceed with kebenaran kahwin for Mr. Chenta and lepas tu cari kadi for my side.

Tak sabar nak kawen!

Original Bootcamp: Second Month

If you remember in these posts, i joined this outdoor-based military style fitness program (basically a bootcamp) organized by Original Bootcamp.

i first joined in June, chose KLCC Park afternoon session as it's convenient for me to go to (after office hour sessions and very near to my office). Then i had to stop going to the bootcamp for two months because i had to undergo a minor surgery (story here) and then it was Ramadhan month (gila hengkau time-time puasa nak berbootcamp bagai).

Now that i'm healthy and free, i re-join the bootcamp! Dah la nak kawen ni, lagi harus lah bersungguh-sungguh kuruskan badan.

My first session started last week on Tuesday. As usual, we had to do the fitness test. 

i thought my fitness level is still okay. Ye lah, baru 2 bulan berehat and tak workout langsung, takkan la teruk sangat ye dak? Besides, i lost 3.5 kgs, mesti lah lagi fit. Turned out i was dead wrong! My latest fitness test time was worse that the first fitness test! First test i was at 10 mins 39 secs, second test was 10 minutes flat. This latest one sudah mencorot jadi 10 mins 42 secs! Agak down di situ. 

Lesson learned: kalo ko hengat ko dah fit selepas lama bersukan, jangan stop. Once you stop exercising, fitness level will decrease. 

Maka cekalkan hati gi bootcamp bersungguh-sungguh nak fit balik.

Second session last Thursday was hell. Think i did 70 push ups, God-knows how many burpees, thrusters, and all the other intense exercises. My arms were sore from Friday til Monday. I AM NOT EXAGGERATING AT ALL!

Third session yesterday was more bearable. Did push-ups (tapi tak la sampai 70!), thrusters, planking, scissor-something, some sprinting, etc. Sekarang otot di perut pulak sakit-sakit *imaginary six-packs*

My June session bootcamp didn't make me lose any weight, so i expect the same from this session. Malas nak berharap. i just want my body to be toner and firmer.

Let's see what tomorrow's session brings. Wish me luck!

Victoria Beckham Sans High Heels..

Victoria Beckham and high heels are like isi dengan kuku. You can't see her without her at-least-4-inch heels (except for that ONE trip to Disneyland with her sons last year). Naturally, i was shocked seeing the headline "Victoria Ordered to Wear Flats" on Yahoo! Shine. It's practically the end of the world!

Heelly mommy

How can she walk in these heel-less boots?

When will i ever own a pair of Louboutins and Birkins?
*drool*

Pregnant and being a soccer mom. Mrs. Beckham can do it in high heels.

It turns out that Mrs. Beckham has slipped disc. Man, years of being in those platforms and stilettos must've really taken a toll on her.

Hope she'll recover soon. Slipped disc is not fun. i've seen my friends suffered from it. Nau'zubillah Minzalik.

i don't know whether i've gotten older, wiser or pure malas-nak-berglam-glam, i've been laying off the high heels for the past few months. Paling glam pon wedges je lately. Kalau boleh gi keje pon pakai FitFlop je. Maybe sebab insaf tengok kawan-kawan and sedara-mara kene slipped disc, sakit tulang kaki, sakit pinggang, etc. In a way, it's good for my wallet too. Takde bernafsu sangat tengok kasut cantik. Huhu.

Back to Victoria, this is her latest photo, shortly after giving birth to her first daughter, Harper Seven Beckham:

Click here if you wanna know more

Photo sources: The Daily Mail and Google Image

p/s: How the hell did she get that skinny lepas beranak?? i think lepas beranak nanti i'll be one of those moms who'll take years to get the kilos off :(

What Bootcamp Taught Me

Since i went for the ass surgery, i couldn't go to Original Bootcamp (OBC) sessions. Doctor's advice; no high intensity activities for at least a month.

Fearing for my just-cut ass, i obeyed. No jogging, no bootcamping, no gymming. It's been exactly 25 days since my last OBC session.

i feel terrible. i miss the muscle aches. i miss the instructor's shouting. i miss seeing Hamim sweat like a pig. i miss wondering "what's next?". i miss OBC.

People ask "So what did you get from OBC?"

Here's my point-of-view on OBC..

1) i didn't shed any kgs. My weight is still the same.

   - i'm not gonna lie to you. i thought i'd lose weight by joining, but NO. My weight's still the same. i'm still fat.

2) But i lose a few cm..

   - not much la.. But a few cm on my belly and thigh are gone.. Sikiiiiittttttt je.. A lot more to lose!

3) My fitness level increase

   - Prove: my time was 10 minutes 39 seconds on the first fitness test. On my second one, i managed to finish at 10 minutes! Hooyah!
   - i can run 5km in 34 minutes at Ekiden Run. My usual time was 30 minutes for 3.9km run.
   - During my recent geological fieldwork, we had to hike uphill. i didn't feel tired during or after the hike. Heck, i don't even feel the muscle pain afterwards!
   - Do i need to brag more? :p

4) i became more careful of what i eat

   - i'm not the dieting type. i eat whatever i want. But after joining OBC, the thought of eating nasik lemak for dinner after 100 push-ups makes me lose my appetite. Ko dah penat-penat burn calorie, apsal nak tambah lagi?

5) i became a little bit more muscle-y

  - Otot di peha dan betis sudah memejal. Tak se-flabby dulu. Perot je susah benor nak memejal. Hadoiii..

6) i challenge myself more

  - i found that when i'm tired of running or doing the squats, my inner voice would say "Come on, bitch! Just a bit more. That girl dah buat 20 kali takkan ko nak buat 17 kali je?"

7) i made friends.. Lots of them.

  - People from all kinds of age groups, professions and companies join OBC. So i made friends. When you feel like dying doing the burpees, a stranger's motivating words somehow motivates you to try harder.

Errr.. Yeah, that's all the points that i can think of right now. My only regret is that i didn't join sooner. i'm gonna start a new OBC session right after Ramadhan. Gotta work these muscles. Wish me luck!

p/s: Memang tak la berehat sebulan after surgery. During my fieldwork i hiked uphill, i swam, i ran, i jumped around.. Alhamdulilah ass is still intact. Takde jahitan tercabut :p

Removal of Left Lateral Gluteal Mass

Last week i was admitted to Prince Court Medical Center.

i was diagnosed with left lateral gluteal mass. Fuhhh.. macam hebat je bunyinya kan? Nak tau apa itu left lateral gluteal mass? Ia adalah ketulan di bahagian atas bontot belah kiri. Yes i said it. i had some sort of a lump on my upper left ass.

Go on. Laugh all you want. It's rather funny. A lump in the ass.

Now before any of you start picturing funny images, bende alah tu bukan lah directly on my butt cheek. Dia kat bahagian atas. Dekat ngan pinggang.

Mula-mula memang lah segan nak bagitahu orang i had a surgery on my ass. Kang orang ingat aku nak pi besarkan bontot yang sedia besar. Tapi setelah beberapa orang tahu, and orang-orang ni pulak dok bagitahu orang-orang yang lain yang tade kene-mengena (mulut manusia kan.. ko boleh tutup?) so i think tiada gunanya segan-segan sorok-sorok bagai.


The Story

Begini ceritanya.. Late May 2011, i discovered this lump while in the shower. Makin lama, makin besar lak aku rasa lump ni. Mulanya tak la risau sangat coz as far as i know, lumps are normal in fatty parts (e.g breast, butt). But what makes me nervous it the condition of the skin on the surface. Kulit jadi putih setompok and dier kedalam, macam lump tu tarik kulit tu kedalam.

Worried, i went to a clinic, just to get doctor's opinion. To my surprise, she said "This is not normal. I don't know what this is. I'll refer you to a hospital to get it checked properly". My first thought was "Yeayyy gi spital!!" Don't blame me, this is the first time ever i get to go to a hospital for a checkup.

So off i went to see a Breast and Endocrine Specialist at PCMC. She examined it. Scanned it through the ultrasound machine. She said "Err.. i'm not sure what this is. A radiologist downstairs will take a look on this. Maybe she'll know what this is. What concerns me is the skin. I'm just afraid it's a melanoma.." terkejut aku disitu. i know what melanoma is. It's the most dangerous type of skin cancer! Berderau darah.

Seeing the Radiologist

Dengan pasrahnya pegi lah jumpa radiologist. She examined me for quite some time. Pakai tools itu, tools ini. Pastu muka kerut-kerut. Tak sabar, aku pon tanya "Err.. What is that?". masih berkerut pandang skrin ultrasound tu, dia kata "To be honest, Siti, i don't know what this is. i suggest you get it removed." Agak serius bunyinya.

i was scheduled for a surgery the next 2 weeks.

Day of Surgery

Came Thursday, June 30, 2011. Hairannya aku tak risau langsung. malam sebelum pembedahan boleh lagi jalan-jalan amek Mr. Chenta di airport. Pagi pembedahan boleh lagi gelak-gelak. Even 5 minutes before pembedahan sempat tertido sebab boring menunggu.

Anyway, it was supposed to be a day care surgery. Maksudnya lepas surgery boleh balik. So i came dengan hati yang tenang bersama Mr. Chenta. Directly i was brought to the day care unit. Mr. Chenta di halau pulang. Terus tukar baju pakai baju camni:

Hehe. Dah macam tukang bedah, bukan orang nak dibedah.

Kat day care center ni ade banyak katil and a few operation theater. Kat katil aku ni siap ade massage chair lagi. i had 1 and a half hour to kill before the surgery. Kalo tau boleh je soh Mr. Chenta teman sambil dia dok berurut di massage chair.

 Massage chair sebelah katil.

At 1.45pm. They brought me into the waiting area, near the operation theater. Time ni la aku tertido 5 minit tunggu operation theater ready. At 1.50pm, an anaesthetist (doktor bius) came to see me. Friendly je borak-borak. i was brought into the operation theater. Man, it was cold in there! They had to change my blanket to a warm blanket. Diorang borak-borak lagi while the anaesthetist injek tangan aku masukkan bius tu. pastu ade pulak corong oksigen tu letak kat mulut. Then i was gone.

After Surgery

Tersedar around 4pm, sebab nurse kejutkan. Sangat pening and sangat ngantok. She handed me a case with that 'lump thing' in it. All i saw was blood. Aku ngangguk je and sambung tido balik.

Kol 5.30pm tersedar lagi. Kepala pening yang amat. tekak sakit. i requested to be admitted to the ward. Pening+ngantok tak kuasa aku nak bangun tukar baju, call Mr. Chenta segala nak mengarungi traffic jam balik umah. Tido balik.

At 6.30pm, dah selamat berada di ward. To my delight, my bestie Shaq was there! Weeee.. 

Borak-borak. But i couldn't concentrate coz i was hungry!! Berpuasa dari malam sebelum kot for the surgery. Nurse bagi egg sandwiches as a light snack habis aku bedal. At around 7.30pm my dinner arrived! Sedap yawww!

Beef lasagna with garden salad and fruits for dessert.

Muka toya tapi lapar tapi nak senyum.

i shooed Shaq out at about 8.30pm sebab dier nampak cam penat sangat. Ye la weekdays kan. Balik keje. At 9pm Mr. Chenta arrived with Wan. Merajuk ngan Mr. Chenta sebab tak datang awal-awal. Sobs. Tapi kejap je rajuknya :p 

The next morning i woke up feeling sakit-sakit di bahagian dibedah. Bius dah hilang sepenuhnya agaknya. Breakfast was not yummy sebab makan pancake je. i wanted the egg breakfast tapi semalam Wan pesan kene berpantang, takleh makan telur. So makan pancake je.

At arround 1.30pm i was discharged. Went home happily. 

 Sempat camwhore dalam toilet. Muahaha.

Oh, not before i had PCMC's Grilled Salmon with Sauteed Mushroom, mushroom soup, and mashed potatoes. *grin*

 My last lunch at PCMC. It may not look yummy but the salmon is yummehhh..

Seriously makanan PCMC sedap dowh.

On Monday, i went for a follow-up checkup with the doctor. Test result is ready. Ko tahu tak the size of the lump adalah sebesar bola golf? Argghhh trauma aku dengar! It turns out the lump in my ass was a hematoma or bak kata Melayu nya, darah beku. It grows larger sebab tu la makin lama makin rasa. Nasib baik keluarkan. Kalo tak lama-lama bontot besar sebelah haha. i'm just thankful it's not cancer. 

Alhamdulillah.

Post Surgery Experience 

  
The surgery area is not much of a problem. Biasa lah sakit macam luka dan denyut-denyut lepas surgery. i try not to wear tight pants. i mostly wore maxi dresses and long skirts for a week after the surgery.Longgar-longgar berangin-angin gitewww...

Apa yang sangat sakit adalah tekak dan mulut. Apparently during a surgery which involve a general anasthesia, a tube is inserted into your mouth all the way down to your throat to help you breathe during the surgery. So memang nak dekat dua minggu tekak sangat sakit yang sampai telan air liuyr pon susah. Not only that, maybe because i was dehydrated sebab tak banyak minom (sebab sakit tekak), ulcer tumbuh dengan pesat nya beberapa bijik dalam mulut. Memang dugaan sangat. i couldn't eat, and it hurts even in my sleep. Alhamdulillah hari ni after 10 days, baru surut segala sakit tekak and ulcer.

Sebab duduk dengan Wan, makan memang agak berpantang la. Tak makan telur, tak makan seafood. Takot gatal luka katanya. Cuma ada sekali je termakan butter prawn tapi Wan buat-buat tak nampak lalalala.. hasil nasihat keluarga dan kawan-kawan juga saya makan pati mikan haruan. Sangat tak sedap. Takkan makan dah smpai mase dalam pantang beranak nanti. Bluwekkkk!!

 Pati ikan haruan Polleney.

The most disgusting thing i've ever let into my mouth.

*pic credit to Mr. Google*

Okay that's the story of my ass. i gotta go now. A hectic week ahead!


p/s: i'm going on a 5-days geological fieldtrip across West Peninsula Malaysia starting tomorrow. Harap-harap luka surgery ok. Takot jugak kalo terkoyak or terbelah. Erk!