Salmon Porridge

Last weekend i decided to cook something a lil' bit special for Afif; Salmon Porridge with Veggies. 

As many of you would know, salmon is fortified with good fats particularly Omega 3 and also DHA. Many research conducted show that fishes especially salmon can make your baby smarter, imrpove vision, enhance immunity and help prevent eczema.

With these qualities i decided why not give it a try. Selama ni Afif's main source of protein are ikan bilis dan ayam je pon. Ikan pernah try bagi sekali je iaitu ikan kembong. Lalu gigih la beli ikan salmon dua ketul kat Giant. 2 ketul RM13. Murah la compared to Isetan seketul RM24.

Resipi dia mudah ajo. Macam selalu aku buat porridge Afif la cuma kali ni tukar ngan salmon.

Bahan-bahan:

Salmon setengah ketul (aku suka part kat belly dia tu sebab ada lemak yg sedap)

1 biji bawang sederhana kecik

1 ulas garlic

4 ekor ikan bilis saiz sederhana

Butter

Carrot

Kentang

Broccoli

Segenggam beras

 

Cara masak:

Tumis bawang, garlic dan ikan bilis dalam butter. Agak2 dah masak, masukkan beras yg dah dibasuh lalu masukkan air. Tunggu 2/3 masak (agak-agak 45 minit). Masukkan kentang, carrot dan broccoli. Kemudian masukkan salmon. Tunggu masak sepenuhnya. Siap! Blend jika mahu.

Make sure segala tulang di buang masa memotong mendadu salmon tu. Ada setengah orang rebus salmon berasingan. Ada jugak yg grill salmon tu berasingan. Tapi aku prefer masukkan skali dalam bubur supaya segala rasa dan good fat salmon tu terus meresap ke dalam bubur.

Ececeyy tuan kecik sempat jeling camera sebelom makan.

His Current Hobby

Nowadays Afif loves to go for car rides.. and instists to drive!

Sorry mister, but you're 18 years too young to drive.

Other than that, he's very much obsessed with food, Astro remote control (drives everyone mad by changing the channel 100 times per minute), boobs, and books, with Mirror Me remains his favorite one.

Lazy Sunday activity.

Anyway, last weekend i made him porridge. What i changed this time was instead of extra virgin olive oil, i sauteed onions and anchovies with butter. Put in some rice and water. Wait to boil. When the porridge is almost ready, i put in potato, carrot and broccoli. Wait to cook. And this is the result:

The smell is divine, i tell you. Must've been the butter. Kurang pahala puasa.

Oh, but of course i blended it. Afif makan selera siap bertambah lagi masa lunch and dinner.

21 Years On.. But i'm Okay

Today is 22 July 2013.

It marks the 21st anniversary of my mama's death.

21 years.

When you put it like that, when you see the numbers like that, you'll suddenly realized that "Wow.. It has been THAT long?"

i was barely 7 years old when Mama passed away. Faizal was 6 and Redha was 3. i remember that day vaguely. i remember it like a third person's point of view. It was around noon. My brothers and i were playing at the yard with our neighbour when the maid called us in. That time Unyang was still alive. She was crying and wailing and said "Mama dah takdeee.." i was confused. i don't know how but then i got it. i understood that she's no longer alive. i remember crying.

The rest of the story like the majlis tahlil, the burial, people crying.. i can't remember any of that. It's like it's been erased from my brain. i later learnt that human brain can erase painful memories to protect you. But i knew it happened. Because a hell lot of people LOVES my mom.

And Papa.. i know he was devastated. Heart broken. Because from that day until his last breath he always talked about Mama. Sing about her. He even had this one room in his clinic -  a room full of Mama's photos and clothes and stuff. Like a shrine for her. He'd cry whenever he's in there.

So from that day onwards, we became motherless. Yes, we have a few mother-figures. But still, not our Mama.

21 years is a long time.

i must say i don't know how it feels to have a mother.

To be in school and say "Mama.. Tadi kan si Polan curi pemadam kittewwww"

To be away in college and say "Cepat la cuti sem. i miss my mother's cooking!".

To be a teenager and say "Mommm let's go shopping!".

To be a bride-to-be and shop wedding stuff with her.

To be a mom and say "Maa.. i'm coming home for berbuka bawak cucu awak ni haa.."

i missed out a lot.

21 years is a long time.

With time, i learn to accept. i understand that no matter how unfair it is, this is my qada' and qadar. With time, i have grown and learn that being motherless is hard, but not impossible. i just hope my chlidren won't go through what i went through.

i never heal. A wound like this never heals. But i'm okay now.

Mama,

Your little girl had grown. i love makeup like you did but rarely wear them. Love fashion like you did but now that i'm donning the hijab, i'm still trying to find tune and experiment. You have a grandson now. He's almost hairless like i was when i was a baby, looks a bit like me but thank God he gets my husband's nose. Faizal and Redha are okay but you really need to give Redha a lecture plus a scream. Overall, everything's okay. Please know that i miss you. Every single day.

-Tifa

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i hope you can recite al-Fatihah for my Mama, Salbiah bt. Samsudin. Thanks.

My Ramadhan So Far

Alhamdulillah. It's the eighth day of Ramadhan. i hope it's not too late to wish you selamat berpuasa!

My Ramadhan so far adalah biasa-biasa aja. Untung duduk dengan family.. Balik kerja, amik Afif kat babysitter, sampai rumah tengok dah siap masak lauk pauk. Tunggu waktu berbuka tinggal nak hidang juadah/buat air je.. Utmost respect to you girls out there who have to jaga anak and sediakan makanan untuk iftar lagi. Even kalo beli kat bazaar pon is a chore. Ye lah dengan traffic jam lagi.. huhu.

Tahun ni nan hado lah nampak nya chance nak berjemaah teraweeh kat surau. Ye lah, dengan anak kecik ni camne lah kekdahnye kan. Niat nak teraweeh di rumah je tapinya kol 9pm dah terlelap sama bila Afif menetek. Haih.. Takpa, ada lagi 3 minggu. Cuba lagi! InsyaAllah tahun depan Afif dah besar sikit boleh la di ajar ke surau.

Milk production adalah sedikit menyedihkan. For the first 6 days okay je la. Dapat la jugak 5oz first session. Second session dapat 2-3oz je. Kemerosotan 5 oz jugak la sehari. On weekend tak mengepam tapi rasanya ok sebab tengok Afif puas je minom. Tapi semalam lain cerita. Gi pam kol 12pm dapat tak sampai 3oz. Paling corot setakat ni. Mula lah panik. Ye la, skang Afif boleh dikira fully breastfeed sebabnya walaupon dah try campur, dia memang taknak minom fm. Enfalac yang dibeli almost 2 months tak abis lagi. Dia nak susu mama. So nak tak nak kene pam at least 9oz sehari to meet his demand. Stok kat umah tak banyak hoi. Ade 1-2 botol camtu je. Panik.

Call Mr. Chenta dia suruh je buka kalo risau. Tapi ko tau lah mentality org kita (cakap je la mentality aku). Walopon dibolehkan dan disenangkan, tapi nak jugak pilih jalan susah (e.g teruskan puasa). Aku cam sayang nak buka sebab dah separuh hari. Pastu dengar cerita nursing mothers lain ok je puasa. Berbelah bagi aku. Pastu aku jmpa la sorang colleague ni. Dia cerita lah dulu dia ponteng puasa 5 hari sebab mmg production drop dan memang tak larat. She said i have two choices:

1) tukar fm brand lain kalau sayang sangat puasa tu.

2) buka puasa dan lain kali give yourself a break every 5-7 days of fasting to help maintain milk production. Puasa tu boleh je ganti.

In the end, kol 12.45pm semalam aku turun gi foodcourt tapau nasik campur. Lauk ayam masak lemak dan sayur pucuk manis. Kemudian gi Starbucks yang dah hampir setahun aku boikot tu sebab teringin White Choc Pudding Mocha Frap dia. Perghhh siap ade frap! Wagahaha. Makan kat surau. Lega rasa. Bak kata laki aku, alang-alang tak puasa, sental je semua. Petang tu pam, dapat 7oz. Berbaloi buka.

Hari ni sahur aku makan nasi dan juga buat smoothie Shaklee ESP+muesli+kurma+susu+susu coklat dengan harapan the oats and dates can help boost production. Harap berjaya. Amin.

Totally Random

1. On Monday ntah hape hal tetiba menggigil satu badan. Beriya menggigil terketap-ketap gigi. Kepala berdenyut sakan. Mata rasa panas. Demam kot. Kol 3 terus aku balik umah. Tido.

2. Selasa aku MC sebab demam lagi. Kol 9 hantar Afif ke rumah babysitter. Ikot hati takmo hantar tapi kalo tak hantar maka tak dapat la aku rehat. Aku tengok movie. Aku tido. Tapi tak lena sebab teringat anak. Kebah sket demam, i don't see any point trying to sleep. Aku bangun cuci toilet, kemas bilik sikit-sikit. Tak tahan kol 4.15pm aku terpacak kat rumah babysitter nak amek Afif.

3. Dulu aku tak paham camne sayang seorang ibu kepada anak. Sekarang aku paham. Demam pon tak lena tido ingat anak. Macam Monday tu, memang balik kol 3, tido. Tapi tido setengah jam je. Teringat Afif terus bangun buatkan porridge untuk dia. i never knew i could be so selfless.

4. Yeayyy Afif dah suka makan porridge. Sebelum ni 2 attempt aku gagal. First time makan tapi sikit je. Sebab tak suka kot. Second time memang reject terus. Continue je la bagi fruits and vege puree. Third time was on Monday. Aku tumis ikan bilis dan bawang dalam extra virgin olive oil. Dah agak-agak garing aku masukkan beras dan air. Dah 3/4 masak, aku masukkan carrot. Siap, aku blend. Licin Afif makan. Selera betol. Siap nganga mulut badan ke depan mintak disuap lagi dan lagi. Bertambah pulak tu. Haaa.. Sesapa yang perli anak aku mat salleh, tengok lah! Anak aku terbukti Jawa-Minang-Melanau.

5. Dua tiga hari ni aku angau betol kat lagu True Love by Pink ft. Lily Ellen. Aku rasa kena betol dengan husband-wife relationship. i love my husband dearly but sometimes he drives me mad. Bangun lambat lah. Sebok ngan iPad la. Tak romantik lah. Ape lah. But i love love love him. Hehe. Cuba korang dengar lagu ni.

6. Haritu ada beli Storycard by Wedoo kat Groupon. Last two weeks sampai yeayyy! Kualiti okay, cuma memang kecik lah.. Besar daun terup gitu. Ok lah dengan harga RM28. Senang aku bawak ke mana-mana. Looking at the pictures always bring me down the memory lane. Ada gamba 3D ultrasound dia sampai la umur 8 bulan. Kejap je masa berlalu. Sekarang ada lagi deal tu kat Groupon. Kalo berminat, beli lah!

7. Next week puasa dah. Gila cepat masa berjalan. To be honest, last year masa mengandong aku 7 hari tinggal puasa dan sampai skang tak ganti-ganti lagi. Aku try ganti tapi sumpah la lapa gila tahap nak pitam sebab breastfeed kot. Pasni terpaksa la bayar fidyah. Jangan tiru macam saya!

8. Afif skang extra clingy ngan aku. Tapi nasib baik la still nak kat orang lain and tak nanges kalo dengan strangers. Tapinya dia still tak merangkak atau army crawl lagi. Golek-golek je. Pastu slalu demand nak duduk dan berdiri. Itsokay, no rush. Plenty of time to develop!

9. Aku dah tempah dua baju raya. Tapi ntah hapa hal aku rasa cam tak cukup je. Padahal selama ni aku tempah satu je.Itu pon sebab nak posing Raya katanya. Should i buy more? Tapi aku bukan suka berbaju kurung ponnn..

10. Dah sminggu ngidam burger kat Wondermilk. Tapi asyik tak sempat pegi. somi keje je on weekend. Weekdays lak aku keje. Balik malas dah nak kuar. Tapi tak kira kene jugak gi before puasa!

Escape the Haze

Me      : Gilaaa la jerebu ni. Kesian Afif, baru nak baik batuk. Let's go on a getaway somewhere to escape..

Hubby : Ehhh.. Takde takde. Satu Malaysia jerebu nak getaway apenye..

Me      : Who says anything about a Malaysian getaway? *angkat angkat kening*

Hubby : Haha funny!

Sigh..

So that was my attempt to ajak Mr. Chenta to go on a holiday sambil melarikan diri dari jerebu. Taktik menggunakan anak sebagai alasan tak berjaya nampaknya. Cuba lagi!

Tips: Air Travel with an Infant

This time i wanna share my experience traveling with by air with Afif. To date, dia dah naik kapal terbang sebanyak tiga kali. Untung lah. Mama dulu umur 4 tahun baru merasa.

Anyway, we traveled the first time when he was 5 months old, second time when he's 7 months old and the latest one was last week, when he's 8 months old. So in total, ada 6 kali lah. But all are short distance flights; 1 hour 45 minutes KL-Kuching and 1 hour KL-Langkawi. Belom lagi anak aku ke luar negara. Mungkin lagi 2-3 bulan? Hewhewhew..

So based on these 3 trips, these are the tips i can share with moms out there:

1. Do Not Travel During His/Her Bedtime

Afif is the kind of baby who nurses to sleep. Kami baring atas katil, dia menetek lalu tertido. It's hard to do this on a plane. i was lucky on 2 occasions when we travelled at night time. He fell asleep nursing in my arms, no fuss at all. But on our recent flight, we were not lucky. He's sleepy and cranky and refused to nurse. He just wanted to sleep lying down. Husband and i tried everything to soothe him. In the end he fell asleep with me rocking him, mostly sebab penat merengek. Kesian. Tapi ko macam cuak dan malu sorang-sorang sebab risau anak ko mengganggu passenger lain. So lesson learnt: kami sebolehnya avoid night flights. Tapi jika anak anda boleh tido senang takde nak cranky, boleh je travel bila-bila.

2. If Possible, Sit Next to An Empty Seat

On our first trip when Afif was 5 months, he liked being held. So no problem keeping him still. Tapi sekarang dia dah lasak. Sebolehnya nak baring/duduk sendiri. That's when having an empty seat on your row comes in handy. Kami hamparkan dia kat seat kosong, happy lah dia. More room to play. Lagi satu, related jugak dengan the first tips above. Afif nak baring sambil nenen. Kalo satu row ada 3 seats tu ko yang punya, you can easily lie down and nurse your child, with your head on hubby's lap. Tapi trip yang baru ni, ada lg sorang minah ni dok sebelah somi aku. Afif dah melalak sebab tak selesa/sempit pon dia buat bongong je tanak pindah seat kosong kat depan. Pastu buat muka sebab anak aku nanges. Eh ehhhh.. Apa lah salahnya ko mengalah dan pindah seat. Hidop ko senang tak dengar budak melalak, hidop kami pon senang boleh diamkan anak.

Luas dan lapang. Happy bergolek.

(Kuching-KL. 2.6.13)

3. Bring Enough Milk/Fluid for the Little One

You know how your ears seem to be blocked during takeoff and landing.. That is caused by pressure difference. As we go higher, pressure gets lower, and when we land, pressure increase. Sakit wooo kepala dan telinga, especially kalau tengah selsema. But we adults can bear that. Pandai telan air liur, pandai hembus hidung. Babies can't. Drinking milk or water or juice helps to lessen pain/discomfort due to the pressure difference. In my experience, Afif tak pernah meragam during take off and landing. Mostly becuase i shove the bottle/boobs in his mouth or he's already asleep.

He fell asleep just before boarding. Phew.

(Kuching-KL. 2.6.13)

4. Bring the Stroller. Seriously.

i know most websites suggest travel light or wear your baby but i find using the stroller is more convenient. Imagine going through check in, rushing to departure hall, kalau naik Airasia kene jalan lagi 5 kilometer nak naik kapal terbang.. Sakit badan kalo takde stroller. Dah la nak bawak bag lagi. So use the stroller. You can leave it at the airplane door and the crew will store it for you. Upon landing, the stroller will be waiting for you at the door (or sometimes at the baggage belt). Paling bagus umbrella-style stroller (we love our Maclaren Quest 2012). Compact and lightweight. Pernah nampak satu couple ni struggle nak pasang Quinny stroller sebab frame lain, tempat duduk lain. Takleh bayang mereka yang pakai Stokke yang gabak.

5. Toys Please!

Sitting at a confined place is pretty boring. Especially to infants who can't even appreciate the fact that we're flying into the sky. Bring one or two toys to entertain him/her. We always bring Mr. Froggy and Mirror Book, Afif's two favorite stuff. Tapi jangan la awal-awal dah tunjuk. Mula-mula main-main ngan dia. bagi dia tengok keliling. Lama-lama dah bosan baru kuarkan mainan.

Membaca dengan daddy. Masa ni dia demam. Nasib baik tak meragam.

(KL-Langkawi. 16.6.13)

"What? Only 15% discount.. Not worth it!" Afif said. Hewhewhew.

(Langkawi-KL. 19.6.13)

Cranky at the last 15 minutes of the flight sebab dah kol 9.15pm. Bedtime!

6. Timing is Key

Do not arrive at the airport too early nor too late. You don't wanna be wandering around the airport and bore the baby. Tu belom masuk flight lagi. If you get there too late, leceh jugak nak berlari rushing sana sini. Paling best adalah web check-in. Sampai 1 hour before flight, drop baggage, terus masuk departure hall and board.

7. Do Not Overpack

Depending on the duration of the flight, do not overpack your on-board bag. Aku tak pernah lagi bawak diaper bag. Segala barang mak dan anak aku sumbat dalam Longchamp gabak aku. For 1-3 hour flight i suggest you bring only one diaper, mini pack wet wipes, travel-sized changing pad, a pair of spare baby clothes and a blanket. Chances are you're not gonna change the diaper if he/she doesn't poop. Setakat ni tak pernah Afif tukar pampers dalam kapal terbang. Tapi kalo flight 3-12 jam memang kene lah bawak extra diapers. Kang berkudis lak bontot anak.

8. Do Not Travel Alone with An Infant

i have never travelled alone by air with Afif before and i'm never gonna do that. When/ If your baby is cranky at a public place like that, you tend to panic. Having your husband there to help calm or entertain the baby or even just pass you things are a big help. Mana nak cukup tangan nak tengok budak, bawak bag dan juga bawa stroller.

So these are the things that i can share based on my experience. Mungkin tak applicable untuk baby setahun ke atas yang lagi lasak. Juga mungkin tak applicable untuk yang dah beranak 2-3 orang.

Teringin nak travel jejauh tapi bila memikirkan camne la Afif nanti dok dalam flight 6-8 jam boring cranky tak dapat golek-golek terus la rasa "takpe la takyah gi memana.. tunggu dia besar.."

Baby why the duck face?



Man Down!

i never told anyone about this but secretly i feel proud that Afif rarely gets sick. Apart from some fluid in his nose that's always been there since birth, he never had cough, no flu or runny nose, never vomits (which is weird coz baby kan selalu muak/muntah susu), never had diarrhea, and if he had a fever, it's only becoz of vaccination. Usuall it'll go away overnight. Even when my husband and i had fever, flu and cough, he was never infected.

So i was thinking "Alhamdulillah. Mama's milk really gives him high immunization towards germs n viruses.." and "takpe lah dia physically develop lambat sikit asalkan sihat.."

But it all came crashing down yesterday. Takda angin takda ribut takda kene inject tetiba semalam rasa badan dia panas. Check temperature supanya dah 38.1•C. Terkesima aku. Memula tak prasan sbb dia aktif dan banyak bebel cam biasa. But that explains why dia takmo makan harini. Malam aku bagi potato-carrot-dates puree siap muntah. Pastu baru teringat ada a few times tengah tido malam tu dia batuk. Aku ingat tersedak. Tapi yang peliknya masa jaga takde lak batuk.

Hmm.. Being the drama queen that i was, aku cuak la sbb anak aku demam dan batuk. Letak cool fever. Aku sebolehnya tanak kasi ubat. Ye lah takot long term side effect seperti kidney rosak,etc. Tapi Wan insist suruh bagi jugak ubat demam. Takut melarat. So bagi je la paracetamol. 

Tido malam smlm byk kali jugak dia merengek dalam tdo. Tak selesa kot. Tp alhamdulillah kalo jaga tak meragam. Good boy anak mama. 

Harap lah demam sbb nak tumbuh gigi, bukan demam sebab terjangkit ke apa ke. Tp dah batuk ni of coz la jangkit kan?

Paling tak best adalah we're supposed to go to Langkawi today. Aku ada workshop kat sana sambil bawak anak dan somi mini vacay katanya. Aku risau nak bawak dia demam gini. Tapi nak cancel takleh la department aku bayar beriban kot untuk aku participate. Nak tinggalkan lagi la takmo. He needs me at night. Lagipon kalo tinggal, nnt tak minom susu mama. Mana nak dpt antibody.. Stok susu pon bukan banyak.

Afif kuat. Cepat sembuh ye, nak. Ya Allah please cure my son's illness soon. It pains me to see him in pain.

He's 8 Month Old Today!

Dah 8 bulan anak mama. Cepat nya masa berlalu. Alhamdulillah nak berubah bulan ni takde la Afif meragam, or sakit or demam. Cuma 2-3 malam ni dia tido nak berdukung berdodoi macam zaman dia kecik-kecik dulu. Selalunya baring bergayut nenen terus je tido. Extra manja sket kali ni.

Semalam bawak dia gi check up sekali ngan cucuk the last dose of pneumococcal vaccine. Berat dia dah 7.1kg. Dr. Anthony suka sebab 7.1kg tu falls in lebih kurang medium range in the growth chart. Selama ni berat dia mesti ngam ngam atas minimum line tu. siap komen "Aff ni besar woo tapi tidak berapa berat.." Ntah apa hal kebetulan tak ramai orang lak masa our session. Lama juga Dr. Anthony layan Afif. Siap dukung hug hug cium cium borak borak. I voiced out my concern pasal Afif yang malas niarap apatah lagi ngengsot. Doc kata dia ada baby mmg kurang rajin camtu. Afif ni tulang dah kuat cuma maybe back muscle blom brapa kuat. Dia suruh banyakkan exercise dgn niarap and letak dalam walker. Punya la selama ni aku delay letak dlm walker sbb nak tggu tegap dulu baru letak.dah dapat green light baik lah! Harap lah ok je development dia. Tapi dia kata jangan risau lah. Afif lebih kepada social skill. Asek borak, jerit, gelak je keje nye. Masa kene cucuk 5 saat je nanges alhamdulillah.

Lain lain development adalah dia makin pandai meniru gelagat orang. Orang geleng dia geleng. Orang jelir lidah dia pon sama. Orang tepuk amai amai pon dia cuba. Tapi bila suruh melambai, dia konpius. Kahkah. Dia jugak nak pandai voice out preferences. Aritu bacakan buku. Selesai baca aku letak buku tu. dia bising, sambil tangan nak capai buku. Aku amek n bacakan lagi. Letak balik, dia bising nak lagi baca buku. 3 kali gitu. Bagus lah nak, suka membaca. Jangan asek ngadap tv, ngadap ipad, mintak lego, hotwheels, xbox je dah besar nnt. Physically, masa niarap dia dah angkat2 bontot tp tangan tak move so static je la gitu. Takpe, cuba lagi!

Minggu ni masuk minggu kedua dia dok umah babysitter. Alhamdulillah ok je nampaknya. Cuma first and second day aritu bila amek dia nampak penat n ngantok bebenor. Sampai rumah senyap je. Termenung. Aku risau jugak. Masuk hari ke-3 dan seterusnya ok dah. Mungkin dia sesuaikan diri time tu. First time mom nok, i admit i'm really paranoid. Terfikir bukan-bukan. Babysitter kasi ubat tidur ke ape ke.. Siap mintak hubby amek awal ari Khamis aritu kononnya spotcheck. Kebetulan hubby syif malam time tu. Tapi ok je. Hubby kata dah jangan paranoid sangat. Skang tgk Afif ceria je gi situ lega aku. Semoga semuanya okay.

Itu je la hapdet kali ni.

Budak good mood gi check up.

Buah hati pengarang jantung.

The First Day

Today is a very heart breaking day for me.

The day i had to send my precious little son to the babysitter.

Cries.

Wails.

Cries.

Seriously i don't know how you mothers do it. Tabah gila.

i feel like a failure, having to leave my child. Tapi nak buat camne lah kan.. Nak berhenti kerja and be a stay at home mom, suami saya bukan lah orang kaya nak menanggung semua expenses. Both of us have to work to maintain the life quality that we're comfortable with. Nak continue suruh Wan jaga, Wan dah tak sihat cam dulu, sejak keluar hospital haritu. This is our only choice for now.

i understand that no other person will love and care for your child as best as you do but i really pray that the babysitter sincerely loves my son, dan jaga lah dengan penuh amanah. Mintak simpang lah anak aku kene dera ke apa.

Pagi tadi Afif happy je pagi-pagi dapat naik kereta. Dia tak tau kita nak tinggalkan dia kat rumah pengasuh. Masuk je rumah tu, macam biasa lah dia sebok pandang sana sini. Curious. Pastu dia pelik, baring di tilam yang asing. Aku kuarkan botol susu, suap bagi dia minom. Tak lama pastu beralih tangan pulak ke babysitter. He looks confused. i almost cry. So aku bla cepat-cepat sebelum berdrama plak nanges kat situ. Sigh. Nasib baik lah anak aku bukan jenis menanges tanak kat strangers.

Sampai skang aku takleh concentrate. Teringat apa lah khabar anak aku. Nanges kah dia? Ok kah dia? Semalam try bagi makan organic baby cereal yang kawan MIL aku hadiahkan. Ok kah perot dia? Sebabnya sebelom ni makan Heinz cereal dia sembelit. Sigh.

Bertabah lah wahai hati.